Living with Multiple Sclerosis

It is June O4, I wake on a Monday morning trying to get ready for work, I a cannot shower this sleep out of my eyes the more that I rub, nothing seems to change. I get out of the show continue to dress, squinting and trying to get my eyes to focus right, I continue on. As the days go on I continue to deal with the fuzzy sleepy feeling in my eyes, then it progresses to vertigo. I began to be dizzy all the time, I loose my ability to drive because the road will not hold still, hey it was not my fault. So I decided that I probably needed to go to the doctor. I started with my medical doctor she gave me a pill that people use for Vertigo it did ok, it just made me sleepy which was cool at night. The I went to an eye doctor, he must have seen more than he was willing to tell me, he told me to go to a ear, nose, and throat doctor and let him lead me from there, but I could tell that there was more to the story, but he really did not want to say. So I went back to my medical doctor she infromed me that I could make that appointment myself. So I knew that it was time for me to change doctors. I was fourtrante to get an appointment two days later, needless to say that the doctors were dumbounded. But anyway after checking me out, they sent me to neurologist, and one MRI later I was told that I had MS and that I had, had it for some time, it had just waited until I was in my forties to rear it’s ugly head. I cannot complain, I have had a good run. I use to walk 4 miles every moring at 4 a.m. it was good. I ran track in HS. When my eyes crossed I had 2 hours of steroids put into my system, and them my knees went out. Now I cannot wear my high heel shoes, that is my only regret. I now use a cane, so I now collect them. I have some that are hand carved, from all over the world. I have all of these cute shoes that I am not able to wear. But the steriods will hopefully wear off and my high hills and I can get re-acquainted:) But you know that there are worse things in life that can happen to a person. It you learn to control the fatique, deal with the changes in the weather when you look at the other illness in the world we come out on top. It is a mind thing, always keep a positive attitude, when I fall I have learn to laugh at myself, and I tell others, I am a pro at falling, if I do not hit my head I am ok. It I break somehing, I will let them sign my cast, if I bruise it I will show you just how pretty a bruise can really look, sometimes I have so many I forget where I have them unless I make a mistake and hit them, but you know it will be all right, life really is GOOD! Despite MS. You have to keep going, you cannot stop because of something like this sometimes we have no choice, that is different, but until that happens, I am going to give MS a run for it’s money!